Sunday, December 3, 2017

The Lemon Tree


I've been putting off this post for a while now. After doing a lot of soul searching, thought and pray I know it is time. I need to do this for me. As I was juicing lemons the other day I couldn't help but think this is most likely the last year I will be getting lemons from my dad's lemon tree. Why? Because he passed away 2 weeks ago. I haven't posted anything about it because I've had so many mixed emotions. Of course I loved him, he was my dad. At the same time I've struggled because we haven't had the best relationship over the past 20 years. It has been extremely hard because to everyone that knew him he was the most amazing person there was. To me, he was abusive. I'm sure to those who knew him it is hard to believe. I know what I lived through and experienced was real. I'm not saying these things to make him look bad, I don't want to upset anyone, I am doing this for me. Because of my experiences I am who I am today. It is a part of who I am and always will be. I have learned and grown so much because of my experiences. As hard as it was, I wouldn't trade it for the world because I love the person I've become.

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Recently I joined this LDS Mom's Facebook group. Sometimes I can't really relate the topics or questions, other times I do chime in with my 2 cents. Tonight as I was strolling along I didn't even see the post, but I saw a comment and had to share!

"Forgiveness does not mean forget. Forgiveness does not mean you trust them again. Forgiveness means you forgive them for a debt they can not repay back. It also takes a long time to forgive. It's almost impossible to forgive overnight. It takes time and healing and most importantly handing it over to the Lord." -Sarah

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

American Foundation for Suicide

From the Crisis Text Hotline website:
Q: HOW DOES CRISIS TEXT LINE WORK?
You text 741741 when in crisis. Anywhere, anytime. A live, trained crisis counselor receives the text and responds quickly. The crisis counselor helps you move from a hot moment to a cool calm to stay safe and healthy using effective active listening and suggested referrals – all through text message using CTL’s secure platform.

Q: WHO SHOULD TEXT IN? 
A: We exist to help anyone in crisis any time.
The Crisis Text Hotline also notes in their FAQ that all text messages are anonymous and free, although charges may apply with carriers other than AT&T, T-Mobile, Sprint, or Verizon.

Friday, September 1, 2017

Food Pantry!

Back in February or March I had this vision in my head of what it would look like running the food pantry. I kept telling myself, the beginning, trying to get donations, will be the hard part. Once they start coming in, it is just going to magically run itself... WHAT was I thinking?!?!?

Sigh. I love, I really do. But it is so much more work than I imagined 6 months ago!

For some reason I pictured this-
People just bringing food. It will be so easy, I told myself. Oh, I wish.

The first few weeks it took off I had to make a schedule and check it often to make sure I didn't forget a pick up. Right now I only pick up from 3 places, yet it feels like more! 1 place I pick up from 6 days a week. The other 2 places are twice a week, but one is only seasonally twice a week and will soon switch to just once a week. Every place is a shot in the dark as to whether I will even get donations if I go to pick up. There is a chance I will drive "across town" as I call it, and there will be no items for me to pick up.

My days now go something like this:
Walk up, get ready. 2 mornings a week I have a pick up before I even take the kids to school.
Take kids to school, get to work!
Check emails, messages, post open times for the day. 

Right now I'm working on our fundraiser. I have been spending on average 3 hours a day just driving around talking to business, not including sending e-mails and messages! 

Sometimes I deliver stuff when we have too much that hasn't been picked up. 

By 1pm I have to make sure the bins are clean and drying. That includes throwing out any un-picked up donuts! I hate that part! 
I clean on average 2 bins a day, but range from 1 to 5. I'm dreading winter as I do not want to be scrubbing them outside like I currently do. 

Just before the kids get out of school is donut time! 
On an average day I get a LOT of donuts! I'm now known as the Donut Lady! Since the donut place is close to the kids school and close to when they get out I try to kill time between so I don't have to drive all the way home just to turn around 30 minutes later. 

9 times out of 10 our after school snack is donuts! 

I only have 1 evening pick up a week. I also spend some afternoons and evenings preserving what isn't picked up! 

I am so tired to canning pickles! I have made so many jars! PS, my pickles are AMAZING!

My main project today was putting labels on ALL of the jars! 
Don't they look so cute?

Being organized is my best friend!

The "food pantry" in the basement usually looks like this- 
It's a work in progress! 

I keep telling Brad, I do NOT know how I would run this thing if it wasn't for my vinyl cutter! I use it for everything! Label bins for donuts, label for donation jar, labels for donation bins, make signs, canning jar labels, bake sale tags and anything I can get away with using it for! 

I might be getting 1 new restaurant soon. I have my fingers crossed I get it, but at the same time it will add a lot of work! The new restaurant will require vacuum sealing a lot of what we get from them. 

I recently did a month long experiment to see how I would do off my depression medication. All in all, I did pretty good! However, by the end of the month I found that I would get angry over little things and had no patience at all, also I slept horribly. So, for now, I'm sticking to my meds! They keep me sane, sleeping regularly and functioning pretty well! 

All in all, the food pantry is so much work, but I LOVE it!