Sunday, December 3, 2017

The Lemon Tree

I've been putting off this post for a while now. After doing a lot of soul searching, thought and pray I know it is time. I need to do this for me. As I was juicing lemons the other day I couldn't help but think this is most likely the last year I will be getting lemons from my dad's lemon tree. Why? Because he passed away 2 weeks ago. I haven't posted anything about it because I've had so many mixed emotions. Of course I loved him, he was my dad. At the same time I've struggled because we haven't had the best relationship over the past 20 years. It has been extremely hard because to everyone that knew him he was the most amazing person there was. To me, he was abusive. I'm sure to those who knew him it is hard to believe. I know what I lived through and experienced was real. I'm not saying these things to make him look bad, I don't want to upset anyone, I am doing this for me. Because of my experiences I am who I am today. It is a part of who I am and always will be. I have learned and grown so much because of my experiences. As hard as it was, I wouldn't trade it for the world because I love the person I've become.

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Recently I joined this LDS Mom's Facebook group. Sometimes I can't really relate the topics or questions, other times I do chime in with my 2 cents. Tonight as I was strolling along I didn't even see the post, but I saw a comment and had to share!

"Forgiveness does not mean forget. Forgiveness does not mean you trust them again. Forgiveness means you forgive them for a debt they can not repay back. It also takes a long time to forgive. It's almost impossible to forgive overnight. It takes time and healing and most importantly handing it over to the Lord." -Sarah

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

American Foundation for Suicide

From the Crisis Text Hotline website:
You text 741741 when in crisis. Anywhere, anytime. A live, trained crisis counselor receives the text and responds quickly. The crisis counselor helps you move from a hot moment to a cool calm to stay safe and healthy using effective active listening and suggested referrals – all through text message using CTL’s secure platform.

A: We exist to help anyone in crisis any time.
The Crisis Text Hotline also notes in their FAQ that all text messages are anonymous and free, although charges may apply with carriers other than AT&T, T-Mobile, Sprint, or Verizon.