This is a continuation of my previous post, visit #2.
I am remembering last week and a wonderful phone call I got, note I'm being totally sarcastic. My husband and I were at my friends place watching a movie. I realized that my phone was ringing, by the time I got it out of my purse I had missed the call. Caller ID showed it was my parents house, I knew my mom was in Idaho meaning it could only be dad calling. I listened to the voicemail, all he left was a frustrated/ angry sigh. Great, do I really want to deal with him? I always fear the worst, like he's calling to say mom died or something and would end up feeling guilty for ignoring his calls. I called him, but got a busy signal. Before I had time to think he was calling AGAIN. Fine, I'll answer. "Did you call me?" he asks, "Yes, because you called me just now." "No, I had a message on the machine saying Hi Dad. Was it you?" At this point I'm already annoyed, "NO!" "Oh okay. How are things going?" I really don't want to talk to him right now, "FINE!" "Okay, well mom's in Idaho so it's just me and the dog here... Bye" I threw my phone on the floor. My husband looked at me and asked, Who was that? "What was the ring tone? Studip Boy! That's who it was! A very, very, very STUDIP BOY!"
In group #2 during the last few weeks we had to play a song about how the abuse made us feel and how we feel now, after group. One of the girls played the song, Studip Boy by Keith Urban. I had never heard it before. It is 110% my dad!
Keith Urban, Stupid Boy
Well she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy…you can’t fence that in
Stupid boy…it’s like holdin’ back the wind
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that’s what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can’t
Stupid boy
So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that’s what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can’t
You stupid boy
You always had to be right
And now you lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that’s what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can’t
You stupid boy
Oh I’m the same old, same old stupid boy
It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone, long gone
I am remembering last week and a wonderful phone call I got, note I'm being totally sarcastic. My husband and I were at my friends place watching a movie. I realized that my phone was ringing, by the time I got it out of my purse I had missed the call. Caller ID showed it was my parents house, I knew my mom was in Idaho meaning it could only be dad calling. I listened to the voicemail, all he left was a frustrated/ angry sigh. Great, do I really want to deal with him? I always fear the worst, like he's calling to say mom died or something and would end up feeling guilty for ignoring his calls. I called him, but got a busy signal. Before I had time to think he was calling AGAIN. Fine, I'll answer. "Did you call me?" he asks, "Yes, because you called me just now." "No, I had a message on the machine saying Hi Dad. Was it you?" At this point I'm already annoyed, "NO!" "Oh okay. How are things going?" I really don't want to talk to him right now, "FINE!" "Okay, well mom's in Idaho so it's just me and the dog here... Bye" I threw my phone on the floor. My husband looked at me and asked, Who was that? "What was the ring tone? Studip Boy! That's who it was! A very, very, very STUDIP BOY!"
In group #2 during the last few weeks we had to play a song about how the abuse made us feel and how we feel now, after group. One of the girls played the song, Studip Boy by Keith Urban. I had never heard it before. It is 110% my dad!
Keith Urban, Stupid Boy
Well she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy…you can’t fence that in
Stupid boy…it’s like holdin’ back the wind
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that’s what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can’t
Stupid boy
So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that’s what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can’t
You stupid boy
You always had to be right
And now you lost the only thing that ever made you feel alive
She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice
And that’s what happens when the only voice
She hears is telling her she can’t
You stupid boy
Oh I’m the same old, same old stupid boy
It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone, long gone
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